To be honest, a lot of things have changed - so this is the start of a new chapter. Hubby and I finally sorted out our housing issues and moved into our first home (that's another story), we adopted a couple of cats, we've tried our hand at DIY, I changed jobs. And I was diagnosed with endometriosis.
When I first started this blog, it was as a way of documenting my way through pregnancy, and eventually parenthood... but sadly that wasn't to be. And now endo is going to further muddy the waters of my motherhood journey.
So what is Endometriosis?Believe it or not but Endometriosis is the UK's second most common gynecological condition, but very few people have heard of it. It's one of those invisible illnesses, and I've tried to 'grin and bare it' for years. Even in the medical field it is misunderstood. I've been pushing for a gyne referral for years, without luck - thank goodness for the locum I saw who wasn't afraid to admit that he didn't know everything and agreed to my referral after a few minutes on Google.
In a nutshell Endometriosis is when cells from inside the womb end up elsewhere in the body (usually in the abdomen), and causes chronic pain.
A lot of women know what a 'bad' period is, but imagine that pain being completely debilitating - hotwater bottles and heat packs don't touch it, you're constantly popping pain killers but the pain is still enough to make you faint and vomit... Add in the constant tiredness, the struggle to sleep and the sometimes pregnancy-resembling bloat, and it's a really pretty picture.
I'm currently on the waiting list for surgery, but the truth is, there is no cure.
So why am I going under the knife?
Apparently the fact that I have been pregnant before is a good sign, but endo is can have implications for fertility, and the truth is unless a specialist takes a look, there is no way we can say what the chances are. Both hubby and I are remaining hopeful. I'm going to do everything I can to make this work.
And for me this will start by me trying to lose a few pounds. I'm not sure if weight would have a big impact on the endo, but it can only help with the surgery. So I've cleared the cupboards of junk, and joined Slimming World... I've always tried to think a few steps ahead - that's why I'm Learning Early.